a push in the -right- direction

so while i've been wondering what to do about juggling teaching, coaching, and going back to school, i "knew" i needed to teach to bring in the money, i wanted to coach because i thought that was the best aspect of my teaching job, and i thought going back to school would open opportunities (even if it is just to teach college).

but i just found out that i don't have the option of coaching anymore. my principal decided that he wasn't going to let me coach again, due to the girls that are stirring up drama, bringing their list of grievances about me to him. they're trying to blame me for everything that went wrong this season, and i know that there are people behind this orchestrating this all so that they have the opportunity to step into my spot when i'm asked to leave. it's frustrating and hurtful and i didn't quite know how to handle it this afternoon. i sat in my classroom after school ended and had trouble feeling like doing anything else... it was a rather devastating blow.

but i've been trying to stay positive about it. i guess, if you want to look at the silver lining, it's that i'm glad that i don't have to worry about trying to juggle all 3 things - and coaching was the hardest thing to fit in anyways. that means that all i have to do is figure out how many classes i want to cut back to so that i can maximize my time as a student. should i teach full time and take 1-2 classes a quarter? should i teach part time and take 4 classes a quarter? either way, i know i'll be taking classes. it's like, the hard decision was made for me, and now i know i just have to start going to school.

i guess i just have to be thankful that now i know what to do. i remember agonizing over the decision when i was trying to decide whether or not to take the missionary job in japan, and not knowing how to make that decision. it was a long and hard summer trying to make that decision, fearing that no matter what i decided i'd be going the "wrong" way, thinking and overthinking each possibility, and not liking my options. it was really rough.

thank God for closing some doors and showing me the right path this time! i don't want to waste any more years figuring it out...