every day, i wake up and thank God for my friends. and then i pray a blessing over specific people who have asked for it, or have shown a need...

this hasn't been the easiest thing for me to do, but it has kept me talking to God. even when i haven't known what to pray for specifically, it's easy sometimes just to start listing their names and telling Him that He knows what they need, and i just want to lift them up in prayer. it's funny sometimes because i seriously just do the roll call... but i have to say that i've noticed a difference in it now.

i still struggle with some issues of my own, but that doesn't stop me from praying for other people. and when i start thinking dark thoughts, i just turn my attention to God and start asking for blessings on others. at the very least, it's just avoidance. but focusing on the positive instead of the negative has really helped. i'm still struggling with my thoughts, but i keep on turning to Him...

and i'm thankful for all the activities He's filled my life with, and the friends He has blessed me with, but at the same time i don't want to forget about relying on Him, or even dealing with my issues. i'm not trying to hide from anything... i need to remember to keep it real and allow myself to search, and to give myself alone time as well.